“What colleges do you want to go?” “What do you want to be?” “What are you going to major in?” are the types of questions that I’m most afraid of right now. Rising seniors are all troubled with questions about our future as if everyone of us have every single details of our life planned out. It is frustrating and annoying how a simple question could bring out so much headache and bring down our confidence.
The pressure to do well, to surpass siblings/relatives, to not disappoint people is just too much. Maybe, one day I will look back to now and think how immature and stupid it was of me but right now, anything that has to do with college and major is just a sensitive topic. On top of all that, I am the most indecisive person I know. It is hard for me to make a decision because I like to keep my options open, which is a nicer way of saying that I don’t know what I want in life.
I envy those people who are so certain of what they want and how they will get it.
I remember the times when I wanted to grow up and go off to college and become independent, now I just wish that time could slow down.